Thursday, January 18, 2007

Thursday.

Today was filled with more tests and sadness. Luckily, I'm healthy and can undergo an operation. And, equally lucky, they have scheduled us for the first appointment of the day very early tomorrow morning. No time to think about it in the morning. In addition to the operation tomorrow, they will also hopefully be able to take out some fluid from around Bea. My belly has swollen from measuring at 5 mos pregnant to 7/8 mos in just a few weeks. So, taking the fluid out will take pressure off Bea and also make me a lot more comfortable (it's pretty painful to move right now). Matt will update the blog as soon as possible tomorrow afternoon - we'll both be staying in the hospital tomorrow night -- so it's a matter of finding internet access.

We feel as ready as we can be for what will happen tomorrow. We met with the chaplin today and had a brief, but meaningful blessing ceremony for both girls. It was hard to get through, but it was a great comfort to us both. In fact, I asked the chaplin to find us any prayer written by a certain author I like and she actually brought the specific one I had in mind - even though I had never told her the title. We thought that meant God was truly looking down on us all. Additionally, the radiologists and ultrasound technicians are putting together a CD of the pictures that were taken of the girls yesterday.

We really enjoy reading the posts and emails you are all sending. It's the first thing we do when we get back to our hotel room -- it makes us feel very connected, at home, and loved. It's so nice to hear from people who are familiar to us when we feel so out to sea.

That's all for now,
Love,
M & M & B & E

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

M + M + B + E:
I have been here with you every day, thinking my best wishes your way, and not having a clue about what I can write that may help. I am just one more person who is solidly with you right now, and will continue to be here in the weeks and months to come as well. Sometimes life is so good, and sometimes life is so hard and so painful. Be brave and be good to each other.
Love, Jenny C.

Anonymous said...

Missy, Matt, Elsa, and Bea
All that I can say is that our hearts, thoughts, and prayers are with you ever minute of this journey. We know that the two of you will be the stregth the other needs and that Bea and Elsa will feel that as well.
Love ya all,
Ryan and Meaghan

Anonymous said...

Melissa and Matt,

John and I are thinking of you and your family, wishing you strength and love and peace.

I'll echo what so many people are saying: it's impossible to know what the right words are in this situation (my copywriter's skills are failing me miserably).

Elsa and Bea. Blessings to you and to your parents, who are inspiring us with their courage, hope and resolve.

Love, Kristina H.

Anonymous said...

Melissa, Matt, Bea and Elsa - I have been checking the blog at least few times a day and thinking about you far more often. Ethan and I will say extra bedtime prayers tonight for everyone. We are all so sorry to see you have to make such a hard decision. Take care of each other. Love, Ed and Nancy

Anonymous said...

MMBE:
Just can't put our thoughts into words...so many emotions exploding inside us. We can only try to imagine what is happening inside both of you. Hold on tightly to each other, you'll be strong together. And those 2 little bundles inside you will work off your strength and love. Wish there was more we could do or say...know that we care and are praying for you. Mom and Dad Wagner

Anonymous said...

We'll be thinking about all of you tomorrow. It is difficult to imagine what you two must be going through right now. We found out that the difficult times in life made us stronger and our love deeper. Hang in there.

Love,
Scott and Patricia

Anonymous said...

Missy and Matt, you are in our prays again today as you have been.
Our hearts go out to all of you, and we are thinking of you constantly. The words are hard to find at a time like this. Hold tight to each other and know that you have alot of love and prays out here.
Love, Diane and Mike

Anonymous said...

Hi Matt and Missy,

I have been wanting to email you our prayers and many thoughts of you and the babies all day long. It is so hard to express our sadness during this stressful time. Some how words just don't express how deeply we feel for you and your family. I keep in touch with mom and dad every few days and I know how devastated they are not being able to help in some small way. Parents like to protect their children and sometimes we can't help!

I do know with Kim having two miscarriages that there is not much a parent can do to help the emotional stress that occurs when you lose a baby. Even to this day Kim will shed a tear for the lose of the babies. Her case was not anywhere near the decisions you are both making at this time. She didn't have any choice with the misscarriages but you are going through so much more with all the tests and decisions. I do know that after all that happened with Kim, at age 39, she does have a wonderful little girl now and I know that God is with you through this sad time and someday soon there will be good days ahead for you both. It isn't what you were hoping for with the announcment of your pregnancy of twins but it seems you are staying stong and are keeping your hopes up. We love you and pray for the very best ahead for you.

Anonymous said...

MMBE -

I am thinking of you all today and hoping for the best. Be strong.

Elisa

Anonymous said...

Melissa,Matt,Elsa,Bea
We here at Fox River Mall are so sad to hear about your bundles of joy. Are thoughts and prayers are with you all at this difficult times. Stay strong! Everyone here sends their love and hugs
Fox River Mall Staff

seahorsemama said...

Matt, Melissa and little ones,

I have just finished reading all of the blogs that you have posted and wanted to let you know that my heart is full of emotion for you. You both are already such good parents-Melissa, you have been taking such good care of them (even from loud helicopter engine noises!) Eric and I wanted to let you know that you have been in our thoughts and prayers and want to send out our love to all of you.
Love,
Eric and Stephanie

Anonymous said...

Matt & Mellissa,

I learned of your situation via Brian and Anna. I have been praying for you, as well as Bea and Elsa, since Tuesday of this week. I was recently told that God uses many people to accomplish his purposes....some familiar to us... others total strangers. I am prviledged to be able to pray for you. God Bless you all, Linda